怎麼圍滿我的都是抑鬱者

他說他討厭他的側臉。幸這張照裡有曲髮遮掩。

失意滿途,準備躲往圖書館看Luis Bunuel的The Phantom of Liberation之際,小男孩給我來電說要找人訴苦。想來不知是誰有苦要人訴,其實。也許如果不是小男孩要跟我一同喋喋不休,我的抑鬱亦會如同空氣一樣壯大。
於是,他裝一臉苦笑,怎麼你引來的都是抑鬱者。


oh my god its like im fucked by a man from behind...

what is this?
my ni-...
your nipples?wow!
my nee... knees......

hey you look like the girl in the movie?
what who is that? anna karina? jean luc godard's women?
no.. that movie... mm.. the rain...
T.T ; (sweat)

我就係唔跟你番鬼佬,唔同你飲你d番鬼酒

圖:窗外(一月廿四日倫敦初雪)

you complain too much!
一向喜好陪我發牢騷的香港友人,這夜忽然降了火,回贈我這樣一句。
有怨無路數,雖說正能量是可以互相傳染的,可我的負能量如此盛大,只好依賴文字發發火。
入鄉(不)隨俗好,於是我就不同你D番鬼佬講通融之道。我入吧就是不跟你點啤酒,就連corona都唔要。
於 是N. Rose (‘Assembling the Modern Self’ in Re-Writing the Self, p. 250)這樣寫“we are ‘assembled’ selves, in which all the ‘private’ effects of psychological interiority are constituted by our linkage into ‘public’ languages, practices, techniques and artifacts.”
EXCUSE ME, MAY I HAVE COKE PLEASE?
任你瞪眼,擠一個訝異眼神,我就是不和你講你的公共語言,請你亦要尊重我自己比錢攪我的這個個人生活小抗議。

我就係唔跟你D番鬼佬,唔同你飲你D番鬼酒。

荒木經惟

Title Tokyo Nude
Artist Nobuyoshi Araki
Work Date 1989

想當年在東京周未總是一人獨自遊逛,當時因為這張裸照而買下了不是特別好喜歡的村上春樹的小說,"Spunik Sweetheart",小說竟然出奇地吸引,不過最奇的是事隔多年,這個晚上在一個非常偶然的機會下,我方才發現這個招人的封面原來是荒木經惟的傑作。

究竟,有無人有興趣同我影下nude?

Title Pola Eros
Artist Nobuyoshi Araki
Work Date 1999 - 2001

樹影婆娑

from white chapel to bricklane‧
i saw the chinese black and white calligraphy swinging upon my face.

倫敦,你好

是後來方才知道倫敦的潮濕是如斯教人搔癢,久違一陣子,心緒不寧,從遠地下機,甫出機艙,撲鼻而來是那濕漉漉的空氣,方驚覺家的基本概念還包括那份對空氣的依戀。
倫敦的閒省生活除了包括生氣及罵人以外,就是做蛀書蟲,更多時候就是做音樂痴,近日在聽lily allen
她有這首歌LDN:


There was a little old lady,
Who was walkin down the road,
She was struggling with bags from Tesco.
There were people from the city havin' lunch in the park,
I believe that is called 'al fresco'.
When a kid came along to offer a hand,
But before she had time to accept it,
Hits her over the head - doesn't care if she's dead,
'Cause he's got all her jewellery and wallet!

You might laugh - you might frown,
Walkin round London town.

(Chorus)
Sun is in the sky, oh why, oh why
Would I wanna be anywhere else?
Sun is in the sky oh why, oh why
Would I wanna be anywhere else?
When you look with your eyes,
Everything seems nice...
But, if you look twice,
You can see it's all lies!

我正百無聊賴

你問今天我做什麼了,我答沒有什麼。

十時一個人醒來,小妹子還在甜甜地睡。十二時她梳洗過後,我們一同下廚,把莞西、蕃茄、檸檬汁加入couscous,放進焗爐半小時,做了個美味的午餐。









飽食後,我們閒話家常,聽聽音樂,又已日落。
小妹子和朋友外出,我一人呆著,錄錄音,又過了一天。

然後,你給我來個電話,胡扯一會,聽一首Erlend Oye
最近的solo project。

又完成了一個百無聊賴的周五。